| Summer has finally begun and another year has passed, with me getting a year older and hopefully a year wiser. So where do I begin? Let’s just say that this year was an experience for sure. Last year was a year of “firsts” and this year was no different. From experiencing “orgo” to what Korean brotherly love is all about, this year was full of many firsts, just like last year. And one “first” was that dreaded “sophomore slump”. I heard people talking about it last year and like every other freshmen, I didn’t think it was real and if it was, I wasn’t going to be one of the people falling into it. I was so wrong. I thought freshmen year was hard but sophomore year made all the things I dealt with then look like a joke. Orgo took school to another level. Never in my entire life did I think that I would be happy with just passing a class but Orgo was that class. There were times when I was studying for that class where I would literally have no idea what I was studying, and everything looked like hieroglyphics. Sure if you put orgo in the simplest of terms it’s just knowing what reacts with what and what products form but it seemed and is much more complicated than that. When I was studying for orgo exams, I remember feeling completely helpless and thinking that no matter how much I studied, I would still fail. And let me tell you, feeling like that sucks. When you do everything you can yet still feel completely hopeless and inadequate. There were so many times this year where I felt like that, not just academically but in other areas of my life too. But what got me through it all was the “man upstairs”, the good old G-O-D. What I couldn’t carry, he carried for me, even if I didn’t know or feel it at the time. When I felt hopeless and bound to fail, he provided people in my life to support me and remind me that God was there for me too. QTs and prayers were definitely things in my life this year that really showed me God’s faithfulness and goodness, no matter what was going on in my life. I can honestly say that my quiet times really helped me to get through this year and just experience the awesomeness of God. This year wasn’t all hardships and “refining through the fire”. There were definitely some good times, from small group, sweatshop, Boston road trip, hanging in Pineda and Gene’s room, and etc. It was definitely awesome to get closer with people that I wasn’t necessarily that close with or knew well, and it was good to get even closer with those that I already was close to last year. A lot of things happened, good and bad but I think Orgo and the other stuff I wrote in this entry covered the major themes of this past school year (plus if I wrote about EVERYTHING than I wouldn’t have anything to talk about next time). Sure I would of liked a little less brokenness and more “good times” but it could always be worse. Plus sometimes you need to experience a little suffering so that you can really enjoy the good things in life. So I’m gonna end off with my traditional end-of-post quote with two verses that helped me to keep on pushing forward, no matter how bad things seemed at times: “Therefore do not worry about tomorrow for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. Matthew 6:34”; “So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. Isaiah 41:10”. |
